“Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go. ”
Hermen Hesse
There was a period of time when deep sadness filled my life. Some of my darkest days occurred during a 3 year period – coulda filled a bathtub with all the tears. There were days I didn’t want to get out of bed. I wanted to literally run away, join the Peace Corps and live in some obscure 3rd world country just so I could try and forget the pain.
The word unhappy was amplified by 1,000. What I didn’t know, is that this dark period damaged friendships beyond my wildest dreams and came to light just recently – disappointing but also understandable – sort of – I guess.
What’s that quote? “When One door closes another opens, but no-one ever tells you how long the hallway is.” So true. Good news is, I emerged from the sad darkness and have been well on my way to a new chapter – to some of the most personally fulfilling days of my life, which happen to include the best person I could have ever found for me. My insides are calm and happy like they have never been before!
Once I emerged from the dark days, I decided to celebrate new beginnings and was determined to do something physical, maybe lose a few lbs., take some cool photos, meet some interesting people. So, I picked an adventure to the Grand Canyon. The particular itinerary I chose was a 3 night, 4 day (30 mile) backpacking trip at the South Rim of the Grand Canyon – the Grandview/Hance Trail route.
It was fabulous for so many reasons, but mostly cuz the guides were great (cute, smart, fun, interesting and worldly), the scenery was to die for, and my trip mates were incredibly smart and made me laugh on a daily basis.








I wish I would have been in better shape – we carried 35 lb. packs – but I wasn’t – so….it was a solid 10 on physical challenge for me. My legs burned so bad after the first day, I literally had to lift my legs with my hands to cross them. Wasn’t sure I was going to be able to finish and envisioned the humiliation of a helicopter rescue. “I want to be THAT girl” – said no-one ever.
It was a physical butt kicker, you have to bury your own poop, you may emerge with some black toenails, a few blisters….but the memories of the Canyon will stick with you forever. The ~5,000 feet of decent to the Colorado River and the 5,000 foot slog back up to the rim of the Canyon can be a life changing experience if you are in the right frame of mind.
It snowed on us at the rim, rained for 6 hours straight on the day we made it to the river, but we also had a tremendous amount of sunshine. To be honest, the memories of the bad weather are faint…perhaps it’s what keeps us going back for more.
I would say, of all my adventures, this is in the top 10. Could be because it represented a total reset of life for me…..it did the trick and kick-started a whole new perspective.
If you are looking for something to help kickstart a positive change, I highly recommend something like this.
Cheers to new beginnings and a ridiculous amount of new adventures.
….i choose this….
Pam
What a cool trip! And a view of the Canyon would trump a view of a cute guide any day. Well, wait a minute. I might have to rethink that!
Glad you’re on a roll now.
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It was a VERY cool trip. Though I thought I was crippled for life after the first day! I sucked it up. No pain no gain! Haha.
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What a wonderfully transformative experience. Am glad that you emerged victoriously. May you never have a reason to cry a bathtub full of tears again.
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Ahhh, thanks. It was a learning experience for sure. Who knows, it may happen again, but at least I’ll have an idea of how to cope differently ❤️❤️
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“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”
― haruki murakami
Finding yourself in the midst of something so beautiful, and yet overwhelmingly immense and indifferent to your own presence has a way of putting things into a completely different perspective. Good people, too. 😉
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Thank your for this!!! You hit the nail on the head ;-).
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Wonderful, nature gives us so many spectacular things.🌺
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It sure does Marco. I always say Nature is my church…😊
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Those moments we need to feel alive again and focus on ourselves after a downfall… I remember you going on that trip and how powerful you felt afterwards.
So happy that we finally find peace.
Take care
xoxoxo
Jul’
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Yes!! It was life changing like no other….speaking of feeling alive again….skydiving!!!! Wowza…I can’t wait for the post!!!! ❤️❤️❤️
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I’m writing, I’m writing! 😉
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Hurry hurry! Haha.
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Such a weird coincidence to read this yesterday because I had been googling R2R2R hikes at the Grand Canyon all day! I might have to add some kind of Grand Canyon adventure to my list; I’ve been there, but I haven’t done any of the rim-to-rim stuff. Your hike and group sound amazing!
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Great minds think alike. This was essentially a loop trip not R2R2R. It was dreamy and hard as hell!!
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I backpacked down and back when I was 20. It damn near killed me then! Hats off to you and new beginnings!
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Thanks! It was brutal!!!! But oh sooo worth it.
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Photo #6! Wow, wow, wow!!!
There is no question in my mind that the most difficult experiences of our lives help define us. “How” it defines us depends on how hard we had to work for it. Sounds like you gave it your all. Kudos.
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Thanks lady! You are sooo right – I have certainly had my fair share and that is just fine with me. Makes life interesting!! I did give it my all and it was incredible!
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Hurray for the healing power of nature! Thank you for sharing your journey to through the dark. May you continue to find joy in the great outdoors!
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Thanks lady! It was a challenging time in life, but also one of a ton of learning and personal growth – I wouldn’t change it at all. Nature definitely keeps me lifted :-).
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As it does us all! Sending hugs!
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you are always one of the best, thank you!!
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Love the Grand Canyon. I’ve been there three times and it never gets old! 🙂 Great pics.
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NEVER. One of the best places on earth.
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